Swings and Music

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Dreamer on a swing

Once upon a time there was a little girl, relentlessly listening to music on her walkman, going back and forth on her garden swing. This was her safe place – away from the bullies at school.

The act of listening to music, combined with the pendulum-movement of swinging, whilst simultaneously taking in the stunning views of the fields in Dithmarschen, northern Germany, was what started shaping the kind of ethereal- escapism she would wind up creating later in life.

Painful days at school, being beaten until she was bruised, spat on, having her hair pulled by pretty much the entire school class. Why? Because she simply looked different. She wasn’t blonde, blue-eyed or tall, like the rest of the rural kids. The abuse was a daily thing, for years to come and it made her believe she was the most ugly, unworthy thing ever born.

Each day after school, she would run straight to her wooden treasure chest. Here she kept her favourite black t-shirt and her tapes. Her survival tools. The black shirt was like a piece of armour to her and once she put it on, she’d load up her walkman and run straight to her swing.

If she hadn’t been bullied so much at school, she’d have had the confidence to pursue singing. Music was her calling after all and an escape. For quite some time, she only sang to the creatures of the fields surrounding her home, or when she pretended to be a mermaid, whilst playing in the sea. And sometimes she couldn’t help but sing in her bedroom too, even though the thought of anyone listening in was scary.

You might have guessed by now, that little girl was me.

Fast forward to my teens, all those hormones kicked in and knocked out the fear of following my dreams. Fed up with being pushed around, it was like my inner warrior finally woke up.

But wasn’t being a teenager weird and confusing!?
After years of being tormented by bullies, everything changed: the sudden attention, compliments from other kids and strangers. It was difficult to process and led to a feeling of alienation all over again.

Fascinated and consumed by the gothic subculture, sporting raven black hair, listening to all kinds of dark wave and rock/metal bands. Sitting on the floor in my bedroom, scribbling lyrics to songs not yet written. Hiding inside a cosy, dark cocoon.

Have you ever noticed how no matter what kind of day you’re having, the right song can completely change your perspective, the way you feel and even the way you think?
Sometimes you need music to allow yourself to feel those emotions you keep hidden deep inside.

This was clearly some kind of magic! And I was eager to become a magician.

So now almost out of my teens, I relocated to Hamburg, took vocal lessons and started working in a recording studio. It was just office work but it was a great place to meet other musicians. Oh the excitement to be part of it all, even on this small scale!

After a few years of an amazing apprenticeship, the studio was sadly forced to close its doors (as were countless others, due to the increase of home studios). It was time to relocate again – this time to a small seaside town in the UK, called Clevedon.

Here I formed my first band, we started gigging pretty much right away. All went quite well for some time and we almost got signed to a label.

But life happens, my lovely band mates had other visions for their careers and so it was time to start all over again.

Not knowing what to do next, I called the A&R of the label I had been in touch with and poured my musical heart out.Β His advice really shaped me into the artist I am today.

He suggested to go solo. But how? The only instrument I had was my voice.

“Mira, just get yourself a keyboard and play. Something good will happen, I know it will”.

There was nothing to lose, right?

Feeling like a mage in training, it was like some sort of portal opened. All you had to do was step inside and discover a whole new world.

If you’ve ever had to bottle up your passions and emotions, you’ll know just how amazing it feels to finally let them flow freely!

Just like when you’re on a swing – after a short while you trust your legs to do the work and you balance automatically. On a keyboard, I trust my ears and let them guide my fingers. And sometimes you just need a little push and encouragement from someone to get “into the swing of things” (sorry, I just couldn’t resist the pun).

The music industry went through many drastic changes and so becoming an indie artist seemed like the best option.

Today, creating musical portals to other worlds and realms is my passion. I’d love to invite you along to a sonic sanctuary of ethereal, magical adventures.

And by the way, some things never change. I still like to swing (and no, not that kind! ;)). Usually at night, gazing at the stars, often checking in with my new songs and mixes, accompanied by my best friend and fellow musician expLOHR.

My musical story has been full of ups and downs, many tears shed and constant sacrifices made but it’s so worth it. YOU, dear listener, are what makes all of this worth it!

I look forward to many more adventures along this musical journey. Some days will feel like floating on clouds, on the back of a pegasus. On others, it’s navigating through the mist. Here’s to hoping that you are part of that journey!

If you’d like to hear the most recent milestone of that journey, click here to listen to my album REALM OF THE UNICORNS.Β 

Thank you for being a listener and making all this matter!

Love and Unicorns,
Mira xxx

22 Comments

  • Larry says:

    Hi Mira. Your music has reached around the world and has deeply moved me. I’ll be very interested to hear more! And this coming from a dude who is 66 who has listened to a every kind of music from around the world it surprised me that I had such an immediate response to your music. I live in Nelson British Columbia, a town I bet you have never heard of but has a vibrant music scene. home of the Shambala music festival.

    • Mira Morningstar says:

      Hi Larry! Thank you for your kind words, I’m so happy to hear you like what you’ve heard so far. πŸ™‚
      Oh that’s interesting, I’m meeting more and more lovely Canadians lately! πŸ™‚ I think I have heard of the Shambala Festival, it does ring a bell! I shall look it up πŸ™‚

  • Pete says:

    Hi Mira I can’t believe you lived in clevedon I live just a few miles away in brentry I can really relate to the bullying that you got at school so did I. I have an older brother and alway lived in his shadow and I also took a lot of beatings on his behalf. Forcing me to take control of my situation and get in charge. Now I feel as though I am back to the insecurity and self doubt I had as a teenager. I guess life just sends you round in circles. thanks for the music its brilliant and soothes my troubled mind take care stay safe

    • Mira Morningstar says:

      Hi Pete! Ah what a small world! πŸ™‚ Clevedon is such a beautiful place. I do miss the Poet’s Walk sometimes.
      So sorry to hear about the bullying. And absolutely, sometimes it circles back at you and you have to deal with old wounds again. But each time around we do get stronger, I think the key is to really build yourself up and believe in yourself, as cheesy as it sounds. Confidence and strength come from within, so maybe it helps if you keep telling yourself about your good qualities. And don’t put yourself down, even as a joke because your body is listening. A lot of people swear by this technique and I’m just testing it out for myself actually.
      So glad my music helps you relax and escape, thank you for your wonderful feedback. It makes creating these melodies so worth it. Keep safe and well my friend!

  • Paul Newns says:

    Your music is different to anything I usually listen to but I loved it. Haunting and totally relaxing. Something to soothe away the stresses of life.

    • Mira Morningstar says:

      Thank you Paul! So happy to hear you love what you heard so far and that it offers some relief. We all need a little escape sometimes. πŸ™‚

  • Paul Wyllie says:

    Hi mira,
    Sometimes doing solo projects can be amazing. I used to play drums years ago til I stopped. But you shouldn’t have to hide the music within.
    I believe we all have it. Just some prefer to keep it hidden. However luckily you were not not so. And we have been blessed with your beautiful sound.
    Keep up the music and I look forward to more of your songs.
    From paul

    • Mira Morningstar says:

      Thank you Paul! I think it’s near impossible for musicians to ignore this itch to create. But sometimes it’s just good to take a break as well. There’s definitely a creative force within each and everyone of us!
      Glad you enjoyed what you heard so far and thanks for coming along on this sonic adventure πŸ™‚

  • Mike says:

    You are fascinating. I’m also a musician and I think being bullied is a relatable story for many of us. I’m also intrigued at what sort of band you were in before going solo, especially knowing you were into darkwave and metal when you were younger. I listen to a lot of gothic rock and metal, but I am also enjoying your music immensely. I do hear an underlying darkness in some of it, and it’s quite beautiful. Keep making music.

    • Mira Morningstar says:

      Thanks for your kind words, Mike! Yes, being bullied is sadly a common thing and I’ve noticed especially us creative folk seemed to have experienced this.
      My band was called Miss Anthropist, we made a mix of post-punk music, with heavy elements. I did lots of screaming πŸ™‚ Some people said we sounded a little like Jack off Jill.
      I recently revisited heavier elements again, when I released a collaboration with expLOHR, called “Heart Armour 33”.

      I enjoy playing with both the light and the dark, after all they need to co-exist. to create a balance : )

      Thanks for reading and being part of this!

  • Hey, once again you touched me with your words and especially your music.
    It was like a mirror, being bullied, trying to find a place in a very dark world and then finding myself very much alone. Not many can relate to a creative mind. But, all of us here do.
    I look forward to more magic being created.
    Milady.

  • Kris says:

    Hey Mira, thanks for sharing this. I can relate to a lot of what you have written, I was bullied a lot at school too it it played a big part on my life even to this day. I can also relate to having to put in 110% effort into your dreams and how hard it can be along the way, life throws a lot of obstacles at us and we have to learn from them and adapt, but its so much easier said than done!

    Your 3 songs that I listened to are awesome! Great work! I’ve got lots of questions to ask but I’ll ask them in a seperate email πŸ™‚

    Hope your having a good day

    • Mira Morningstar says:

      Hey Kris, thanks for reading my story!
      I’m sorry to hear you were bullied too. I hope that in time, you can use it to your advantage and channel it into your art.
      Here’s to smashing all the obstacles and hurdles us creatives (especially musicians) face on our journey. Thanks for being part of mine and also happy to hear you enjoyed the tracks. πŸ™‚

  • Trev Williams says:

    What a wonderful journey to be on. Long my it continue.

  • Thompson, A.C. says:

    Hi, your piece is wonderful.I believe strongly you’ll progress to greater heights.

    • Mira Morningstar says:

      Hey Thompson, thank you so much for your lovely feedback and words of encouragement! Comments like this make my day πŸ™‚

  • Caeli says:

    I’m so honoured and excited to be a part of your magical, mystical, musical voyage! I also can’t wait for next summer so we can go nocturnal swinging again πŸ™‚ <3

  • Mei says:

    Your destiny has brought you to this point! Looking forward to hearing more on your musical adventure!

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